29.11.06

十一月二十九日,是对我来说非常重要的一天.

五年前的今天，我还记得清清楚楚。

但是，小女孩的爱恋，怎能长久？

毕竟，我当时才十一岁。

他，是一个很好的男生。虽然我们根本就是没有谈恋爱的经验，可是，每一次跟他说话，都是很刺激的，因为我会很紧张，很兴奋，很开心。

十一岁的恋爱，怎能算是恋爱？也许那只不过是puppy love.

可能是因为初恋的关系，四年来，我始终忘不了。

其实,我们早从小学毕业当天，已分道扬镳。

他活得开心就好了.

1 more day , then Novemeber 2011 will be gone ..forever.

Last month of being a Form 4 kid , you know , I know and we both know that 2012 won't be any easier than 2011.

I thought I can sleep all I want , eat all I want and I can be real lifeless for two months because..I'm tired of school & all.

But December 2011 , my schedule is fully packed ! I'm not a busy woman or what , but its just filled with a lot stuffs that I dont even want to do or join.

I just wanna stay home. I just wanna sleep all day . I don't like going out , facing things I don't want to face.

I don't like going out with people I don't want to go out with at all.

I don't like joining camps I don't want to join.

I don't like going places that I don't want to go.

I don't want..

I wish to be alone at home. But its not for me to decide , is it?

I'm all screwed , I promised myself to study because I screwed up my JPS paper badly .

Less than one more year , I'll be sitting for SPM. I can't. I am not ready at all.

How I wish I can go back to sleep. And stay in my dreams forever , even if its a nightmare. Because..I don't know. How silly I am to choose nightmares over reality.

I've been busy thinking , planning all. I'm always worrying bout something I shouldn't be worried about. I don't quite like it.

I wish to leave.